Inspiration, I used to think you a shy and quiet girl, easily silenced with too much wantonness. Like the smoke from the incense I burn. Stillness revealed your form... Now I know you to be a fierce and capricious woman who demands  without compromise and deserves to be served. I am yours. Because you, beyond the veil of this so called reality, are me. Thank you everytime. Your word is my command and I've learned to follow as the universe unfolds itself to accommodate your wishes. If only all the world could know your voice as I do. I know you speak to them. But they listen with the wrong ears. We would all be kings!

balance in everything

it's peculiar to notice how life demands not one or the other, but a relative harmony of both. relative because harmony in itself is manifest of tension. so we strive for close enough. for the balance that allows for flow. progress. action. no one is without the other and so we must make room for everything. within ourselves. make room for the ugly and beautiful. the weak and powerful. give space to what is wanting to emerge even, and maybe especially, when what wants to emerge is shameful. give it room to speak and listen lest the monster grows in the shadows, sabotaging our attempts at control in those moments when our discipline is weak. when our defenses are down. all shadow transforms to light. the monsters become beautiful. teachers. what once was a demon threatening to consume becomes the lover waiting to heal.

it's not easy, but we must trust.

trust and sit with the pain. the shame. the tensions of our lives. the pendulum swings in order to know both ends. but if we do not observe and experience the shifts then the shifts grow loud and our balance weak. our gravity suspect to the will of those around us and we can become quite unlike our Selves.

i am learning.

to sit with pain is beautiful. and i have never felt so grateful. when joy comes, my arms are open and my eyes wide, i look at her like art. and when sorrow comes, i no longer brace myself, i no longer run or hide but welcome joys' sister with compassion and solemn awe. she is just as lovely a queen. i used to think life a high vs low. now i know it's a sphere of grace.

thank god.

- g

surrender

learn to live. learn to play. learn to ride. this life is an ebb & flow, our psyche & ego the board we ride on. learn to flex. learn to move with the motion of the universe. the universe is information. use it without judgement, in joy, in love and in pain. it's all information, all a gift given by you. we choose.

i try.

as i teach i learn to be my word. to be the word given to me, whispered from the lips of the godhead. all is all, including me, see...we are who we've been waiting for. so i am officially on vacation from my past and my future. ears open to the sound of what surrounds me and nothing else. trying to be honest, and by honest i mean true to me. i'm trying hard to make it easy.

like flow...

like spirit "as is"

like Original or a copy handmade with love and intention.

i surrender my regrets and expectations. the war is over. right now wins.

hallelujah.

crisis

this word is used a lot lately. so much that it can be agreed that we actually live in it. in crisis.

but i don't feel in crisis.

the reality i live and the reality i hear and see on tv is growing further and further apart and now i see it. because sometimes you have to go far in order to see clearly. and what i see is that there is no crisis. crisis is an invention. a contrivance. a buzz word repeated until it becomes real.

see how powerful we are… we can say something over and over again until it becomes real.

so why would anyone want "crisis" to be true? and what "crisis" are we talking about exactly?

most of us would say crisis is the economy. war. disease. oil. pollution. population. food. but i know that this is not true. these are not the problems themselves, they are symptoms of the problem. the crisis we are in is spiritual. and by spiritual i mean our relationship to each other and nature in connection to our inner mind, sometimes called the heart. sounds retarded doesn't it? but retarded is how it's supposed to sound so that we never figure it out.

"spirit is for hippies for religious folk for song and dance but not for life. what is spirit in the face of war and economy?"

everything.

because if we were good with our spirit we would be good with our Selves and each other. we would understand one another and the nature of nature. there is no mystery we cannot comprehend in this world, i promise. so you don't have to be afraid. society will not collapse when the dollar falls. humans won't die when the nuclear reactors melt down. for every poison there is an antidote. we don't need nuclear power. we don't need oil. so why fight and die for it? we are not in crisis if we do not choose to be. economy is an agreement. an agreement between everyone to value the money above all else.

by the way, you are not free if you have to pay to live.

and money does not have value unless we, as a collective human race, say it does. we do not have war unless we agree to have enemies. we do not have disease if we choose to live healthy. but you don't know what health is! because to the modern man health is low carb and calorie counting. it's diet everything and organic blah blah blah. health is…

the earth.

health is eating what the earth makes the way that earth makes it. it's alkaline and beautiful and cures everything that man does not make in a lab. i swear it. but you won't believe me, because then you will be the one to blame. there will be no cancer to point your finger at, no government to rebel against, no corporation to hang on the rope.

we, each one of us, chose this life and live it accordingly.

if this makes sense to you, then congratulations. you are on the path of the true human being and there's no turning back once you're on it. me and my friends, we're here too. and so are a lot of people and more everyday. that's the beauty of this time; as it gets worse, it also gets better. :)

if it does not make sense to you then learn quickly. assume responsibility for everything even if it's not your fault because being a victim serves no one, especially not yourself. notice the difference between what is true because it "is" and what is true because you've been told and told and told and told and...

well...

welcome to the matrix brother, sister. i am. selfishly in service to you and everyone.

love.

- g

solution

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-iBFUkWsc4&feature=youtube_gdata_player

children of the sun

children of the sun… we are. illuminated. within as we are without. i stare into the sun. i do. my eyes stay open, even as it burns, but in doing so i feel the fire within me stir. we are connected. everything is. i've heard it said the biggest illusion of all is that we are separate. i did not understand, but i believed. and now as i grow, i have shed the belief in exchange for the knowledge that this is true. we are all one. when i look at you, i see the sun. when i speak to you i hear the song of the human story. ever notice how every story is the same? the characters, places and time change but the story remains essentially the same. we as one, live it billions of times in every way possible exhausting every possible variable and outcome as we collide into each other, killing and loving as we were meant to do and learn... i can see the cycle forward so clearly now. i am grateful for this life. i will miss it when it's gone. i will look back at these few years and laugh at the sorrow and anxiety and feel proud and the love and passion i lived. if i could only remember my place always. if i could only shake the years of being taught i was only human. if i could hang on to the feeling that i am god. maybe i will remember better now that i can see the god in you. in each person that i see. in every action, there is the sacred. i see you so that i see myself.

all my searching has led me here
to this river mirror
that reflects my fears
god is here in me
and so i sing my dreams
i am everything
i am king
lyrics from "soldier" by me.


goodnight.

- g

the illusion of legitimacy

freedom is not flag
freedom is not law
there is no constitution that can guarantee liberty
whether we call it facism, communism, or democracy
power is what men seek

power to define and deny the people
their humanity

life is a beautiful struggle
and through every shadow lies lesson
and if you listen
in the dissonance there is harmony

we can fill our book with rules and ideology
we can fill our minds with science and philosophy
but if our souls are not whole then what we will live is...
psychopathy

our shadows left to their own devices
become the beast that feed on vices
and your world becomes reflection
of the war within
the violence begins when we fail to listen
to the wisdom etenal and forever within
each of us

there may be no freedom
because our journey seems written
but no man should have the right to stand
in the way of our story
live in your truth
and you live in the glory
of the true human being

- g